So I have been at it for just over 2 weeks now. And still I have very little to show for it all. I know I haven't been exercising before this, and I know I shouldn't expect miracles instantly but shouldn't I be seeing something?

I have decided if I haven't seen any sign of good progress by 6-8 weeks into this I am going to have to go see a doctor to see if they can find anything medically wrong with me (and yes I know I should have gone to a doctor before starting this but I am far from a fan of doctors so I go as little as possible to see them).

Yesterday my period started. Oh the joys. So I have packed on some weight with that. I feel bloated and so not in the mood to keep at it but I do anyway. Yesterday I did 1hr of stepper work with the board up on phone books to add to the effort. I have been putting it up on the phonebooks (2 sitting side by side so it's not a HUGE extra but still about 4cm added to the height).

Today I was much better and did my whole routine. I feel at times like I am wasting my time on all this. I know I cant expect to see it all happen instantly and have that whole instant gratification like I would like. But I wish I was getting more from it. After 2 weeks shouldn't I be seeing more of a loss than 0.3kg? I mean who knows what I would really be without the bloating but still. it's wearing on me that I am not seeing more (or more LESS) from it all.

Add to this yesterday I ended up having a hungry jacks meal for lunch (this is equivalent of burger king for Americans). And it was revolting. I didn't enjoy any of it. We were running late for lunch. Was just going out to get the girls (so 2:30) and were heading past HJ and in a moment of weakness in both of us stopped in for a meal. I don't think I will be having another one any time soon. None of it pleased me at all. I think I will stick to my craving of Subway. They are at least healthy!!

At least the husbeast has noticed a gain in weight with the crappy lunch we had yesterday (the same as me half a kilo was whacked back on after it!!! oops!).

Thank you to my 2 supporters!! It's great to know someone is there with encouragement and in Jen's case joining along with me :)

Day 10

So I have reached day 10 of working. I have done 9 hours and 38 mins on the Wii and another 30 mins away from the Wii. And what do I have to show for my work? I have lost less then half a kilo from my starting weight!!

Though I have lost almost 1 1/2 kilos from the weight I got up to after 2 days. I am so hoping that "extra weight" is muscle not fat!!

It's disheartening to get so much effort and work in to see so little to show for it. Am I doing something wrong? Am I not doing enough? Why can't I lose the weight?

I have read that you should lose 1 kilo a week in the weight game. I can't see my goal ever being reached at this stage. Why am I having such problem?

I hate how it is so easy to GAIN this weight but so hard to move it!!

To make it worse Hubby is moving weight easier and quicker then I am!! We can eat the exact same thing in a day and he will do less exercise and STILL shift it easier then me. This sucks the big one and adds to getting disheartened.

I will be strong. I will keep going. I WILL reach my goal, i hope.

it begins

And so begins my weight game. I am not a small person. I would be classed as morbidly obese to be truthful. And now at the age of 31, with two darling children and a loving husband, I need to do something about it before its too late.

I have always been a big person. Well not what the "norm" would call skinny. I was never happy with my size. Father constantly calling me fat, mother constantly going on about me losing weight, and two skinny sisters either side of me in age was alway a drag on my life. I had high blood pressure as a teen, which my mother of course put down to my size. Yet when I became free of my families torment the blood pressure instantly went down (even while heavily pregnant!!).

So now, after having my 2 darlings and gaining far more weight then I am happy with. I have a goal.

The goal is to lose 12.5kilos a year til I am 35. Therefore losing a total of 50kilos by the time I am 35. Can I do it? I sure the hell hopeso. But its not going to be easy at all!

One week ago I started my way to my goal. I bought a Wii Fit and started working out each day. The aim was 1hr a day. I have done this for all but 1 day (which I needed to rest my legs because it was getting to the point where I had problems walking, so I only did 30mins that day, I will catch it up later).

And after a huge week of working out 1 hour, eating less at meal time, drinking more water and less fizzy drink. I have lost .1 of a kilo!!! Its a bit deflating, but I will get there! I will do it. Its a huge step from the start but I can do it. Small steps to start with, fat has to change to muscles which weigh more before I can honestly see the start of it.

I need support, I need strength, I need will power.

I hope you can all suport me and give me strength and courrage.