the weight of the world

stepping forwards

2009-07-22T23:28:00.000-07:00

The weighing game is still very up and down for me. I get frustrated with this easily. I wish it would just go downwards and stay downwards.

Having said that I am not as strict as I was when I first started a month ago. I can see getting disheartened is causing me to slip into previous bad eating habits that I need to get a grip on before I end up giving up all together.

I have watch the husbeast go from working out every day on the Wii to all he does is weigh himself daily and otherwise doesn't use that part of it. His excuse is he is bored with it now. All of it is the same over and over just stepping on and off a little box. I agree with him, it is starting to get a little boring having the damn thing say the same things to you over and over while you are doing arm workout "this is a good way to tone upper arms" "they say this exercise tones your upper arms" no shit..tell me something I haven't heard for the past 35 days!!

So today the husbeast and I ventured around the gyms in my little town (worries me we have at least 5 in a small town!!). We gathered up to 5 free weeks of gym trial time if we wanted to use that. But one of the gyms has a deal on at the moment which is pretty damn good!! If we take it we have to take it before the end of the month. So starting tomorrow we are going in to start out trial time. We know we will only get 1 week of our 2 weeks free there but that's all we will need to know if that is the place for us.

I have exactly 7 kilos to lose to get to my goal 10kilos set on the Wii. Though I would like to lose at least another 2.5kilos after that. So really by December I would like to have lost 10 kilos. I have under 5 months to do this in. I am really hoping that the gym with new different things will help me achieve this.

Husbeast and I were members of a gym 3 years ago but lost interest in that after a few months. This time I am seri0us about weight loss. I lost interest because I saw no changes on the scales even though I thought I was working out so well!

This time the plan is 3-5 days a week at the gym and other days of the week taking walks to help out and not get slack.

Today we had fish and chips for lunch. And OMG I could taste all the fat and rubbish! I didn't enjoy it at all. It tasted revolting. I am hoping this is because my body has gone a month without fatty crap like that (except for the 1 dip into Hungry Jacks). I think this is a GREAT thing that I am turned off by these foods. It means weight loss should be so much easier without these temptations! Though I still crave Subways!! Damn that stuff is expensive!

Lets hope my next post will be full of great happiness and joy over weightloss! I will be using the Wii Fit every day still to mark my weightloss or gain cos even the smallest fraction of loss is a joy to see and gives me great hope that I can reach my goal!

A month

2009-07-18T05:45:00.000-07:00

It's been 32 days since I start this weight loss game.

I have had highs and lows. But currently as of this morning I have 6.2kilos to lose to reach my goal by December. Which is great when you think about it!! Being as I gained about 2 kilos 3 days into it all I have lost about 5 kilos in a month (if not a little more)!!

I hope to keep going with the weight loss and a good pace. And by Christmas I hope to not only have lost the 10kilos set but also the last 2.5kilos to make my yearly goal of 12.5kilos.

I almost lost all faith a few nights ago. I got on the Wii that morning and for no reason had gained 1.5kilos!! I was surprised, saddened, mad and frustrated all at once. I almost gave up there and then that day. ALMOST. I held strong and kept going.

I have to admit I have had several slack days. Where I haven't dont any work all day and by that night did 30mins to make sure I did SOMETHING. I need to get back to doing my 1hr in the morning. It gives me energy and helps me sleep at night. I find if I leave it til too late I have problems sleeping that night.

I need to regain faith and energy in my effort! I need proper sleep, I need to eat breakfast again and I need to get my arse into gear and work out for 1hr in the MORNINGS!!!!

26 days in

2009-07-11T18:24:00.000-07:00

26 days into my working out. Yesterday's weigh in made me happy. I have lost almost 5 kilos in 25 days. I am very impressed and proud of myself. I hope I keep going at this rate.

Today though I haven't lost any weight. I was naughty last night and had a small drink of Chocolate milk and a 10:30pm snack of tuna. But bonus I haven't gained any weight either. So I am happy with that.

I haven't missed a days working out yet. Yesterday I did a more uptempo work out with my 30min stepping and enjoyed it a lot. I haven't lost interest in working out. Though some days when I am tired its harder to find the energy to get going but those days I just do 30mins if I have no energy for more.

Do I now think I can make my goal by Chrissie? Yes I think so as long as I dont plateau and lose faith in it all.

Lacking Energy

2009-07-10T02:55:00.001-07:00

I know its been over a week since my last post. But I have been having a bit of a quiet week.

I have done my working out still. Just some days only 30minutes of it. I have also had far too many late nights of after 1am bedtimes which has caused me to be so lacking in energy that by end of the day I am just totally zapped. But as of last night my sleeping habits is getting back on the wagon! I WILL sleep before 1am. I WILL try and keep my energy up so I keep up the weight loss!

I have had problems with my hip hurting a bit, causing walking to be a little off. I think I over did something while working out and needed to give it a little rest.

I have been good though!! Nothing like chocolate in my life for awhile.

Even though I haven't been keeping up to my regular workout for 1hour I have still lost 3 kilos in 3 weeks. This makes me a very happy camper!! Mind you this is the 3 kilos from the gained weight (I gained 1kilo 3 days into working out). But still I am damn happy!! its still 3 kilos lost from the start. Biggest happy for me? I have fallen under the set weight I really was horrified to see I was in! So first big goal done!!

I haven't missed a day yet with working out (even if it was only 30 mins some of them).

Husbeast is closer to our 6 month goal though, which of course drives me nuts considering he has had several days where he hasn't worked out at all!!

I wish I could say I had a steady down flow in weight but it's been up and down a little. But still far more down then up.

I hope everyone is well. And thank you to my supporters!!

2009-06-30T22:39:00.000-07:00

So I have been at it for just over 2 weeks now. And still I have very little to show for it all. I know I haven't been exercising before this, and I know I shouldn't expect miracles instantly but shouldn't I be seeing something?

I have decided if I haven't seen any sign of good progress by 6-8 weeks into this I am going to have to go see a doctor to see if they can find anything medically wrong with me (and yes I know I should have gone to a doctor before starting this but I am far from a fan of doctors so I go as little as possible to see them).

Yesterday my period started. Oh the joys. So I have packed on some weight with that. I feel bloated and so not in the mood to keep at it but I do anyway. Yesterday I did 1hr of stepper work with the board up on phone books to add to the effort. I have been putting it up on the phonebooks (2 sitting side by side so it's not a HUGE extra but still about 4cm added to the height).

Today I was much better and did my whole routine. I feel at times like I am wasting my time on all this. I know I cant expect to see it all happen instantly and have that whole instant gratification like I would like. But I wish I was getting more from it. After 2 weeks shouldn't I be seeing more of a loss than 0.3kg? I mean who knows what I would really be without the bloating but still. it's wearing on me that I am not seeing more (or more LESS) from it all.

Add to this yesterday I ended up having a hungry jacks meal for lunch (this is equivalent of burger king for Americans). And it was revolting. I didn't enjoy any of it. We were running late for lunch. Was just going out to get the girls (so 2:30) and were heading past HJ and in a moment of weakness in both of us stopped in for a meal. I don't think I will be having another one any time soon. None of it pleased me at all. I think I will stick to my craving of Subway. They are at least healthy!!

At least the husbeast has noticed a gain in weight with the crappy lunch we had yesterday (the same as me half a kilo was whacked back on after it!!! oops!).

Thank you to my 2 supporters!! It's great to know someone is there with encouragement and in Jen's case joining along with me :)

Day 10

2009-06-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

So I have reached day 10 of working. I have done 9 hours and 38 mins on the Wii and another 30 mins away from the Wii. And what do I have to show for my work? I have lost less then half a kilo from my starting weight!!

Though I have lost almost 1 1/2 kilos from the weight I got up to after 2 days. I am so hoping that "extra weight" is muscle not fat!!

It's disheartening to get so much effort and work in to see so little to show for it. Am I doing something wrong? Am I not doing enough? Why can't I lose the weight?

I have read that you should lose 1 kilo a week in the weight game. I can't see my goal ever being reached at this stage. Why am I having such problem?

I hate how it is so easy to GAIN this weight but so hard to move it!!

To make it worse Hubby is moving weight easier and quicker then I am!! We can eat the exact same thing in a day and he will do less exercise and STILL shift it easier then me. This sucks the big one and adds to getting disheartened.

I will be strong. I will keep going. I WILL reach my goal, i hope.

it begins

2009-06-22T18:42:00.000-07:00

And so begins my weight game. I am not a small person. I would be classed as morbidly obese to be truthful. And now at the age of 31, with two darling children and a loving husband, I need to do something about it before its too late.

I have always been a big person. Well not what the "norm" would call skinny. I was never happy with my size. Father constantly calling me fat, mother constantly going on about me losing weight, and two skinny sisters either side of me in age was alway a drag on my life. I had high blood pressure as a teen, which my mother of course put down to my size. Yet when I became free of my families torment the blood pressure instantly went down (even while heavily pregnant!!).

So now, after having my 2 darlings and gaining far more weight then I am happy with. I have a goal.

The goal is to lose 12.5kilos a year til I am 35. Therefore losing a total of 50kilos by the time I am 35. Can I do it? I sure the hell hopeso. But its not going to be easy at all!

One week ago I started my way to my goal. I bought a Wii Fit and started working out each day. The aim was 1hr a day. I have done this for all but 1 day (which I needed to rest my legs because it was getting to the point where I had problems walking, so I only did 30mins that day, I will catch it up later).

And after a huge week of working out 1 hour, eating less at meal time, drinking more water and less fizzy drink. I have lost .1 of a kilo!!! Its a bit deflating, but I will get there! I will do it. Its a huge step from the start but I can do it. Small steps to start with, fat has to change to muscles which weigh more before I can honestly see the start of it.

I need support, I need strength, I need will power.

I hope you can all suport me and give me strength and courrage.